Monday, 2 April 2012

Obstacles as Path with Cyndi Lee

One of my all-time favorite, NY based yoga instructors, Cyndi Lee, brought us face-to-face with our obstacles in yoga. She began the class by asking us to state our favorite and least favorite pose. Almost all of us admitted to avoiding the poses we disliked. Since yoga holds up a mirror to what's going on internally, we know it goes much deeper than disliking heart openers.  Be it a person who annoys us, something about ourselves that's bothersome, or even our racing mind - these are all obstacles we'd rather ignore. It's so much easier to pretend they don't exist.  By dismissing these interferences, we're just tying knots in our hearts. But who wants a rock solid, knotted heart anyway?
For me, my greatest hindrance would probably be my mind, which is loaded with racing thoughts. There were times when I mentally sensationalized situations greater than The National Enquirer. Then anxiety would kick in, followed by shortness of breath and ending with complete mind, body, soul disconnect. Pretty ugly feeling that no one wants to live. I'm learning to 'lean in' to the noisy thoughts, tell them to take a hike, rather than buy into them. Just like The National Enquirer - if we keep buying the bull*, we're simply keeping them alive.
When facing your obstacles (plural because, let's face it, we all have more than one), try to look at them carefully. There's a reason you're feeling challenged by this person or personal matter. Instead of distracting yourself from what's problematic, acknowledge it with an open heart by trying to understand what it's touching inside. Leaning into an uneasy circumstance is uncomfortable. We live in a society that finds comfort in running away from reality. You might not like what you discover about yourself, but that's your truth which deserves to be honored.
It comes down to this: if you set aside your ego's fears, you'll most likely find wisdom through your obstacles. This wisdom will give you compassion for your Self and others. To think, all this time you're resisting getting into your sore spot, you're missing out on living your best life.
Me & Cyndi Lee