2013...Waiting to Inhale

Best lesson of 2012

As 2012 comes to an end, I smile, breathe and slowly reflect on my universal wish for 2013. This year, I learned about polarities such as yin/yang, and how contrary forces are interconnected to actually be complementary - not opposing forces.
So, for 2013, my wish is for all of us to achieve yin/yang balance through these 13 intentions:

1. May you work hard, yet rest often.
2. May you succeed, after having failed.
3. May you appreciate light, after observing darkness.
4. May you be aggressive with your goals, yet passive with the small stuff.
5. May you be patient with your faults, yet intolerant of personal judgement.
6. May you credit courage, after facing a fear. 
7. May you make mistakes, but learn new lessons.
8. May you want less, and give more. 
9. May you have faith in your soul, yet be skeptic of your ego.
10. May you dance with joy, after minding your anger.
11. May you laugh out loud, after a heavy-hearted cry.
12. May your thoughts be light, and your breath be full.
13. May you DO less, and BE more.

Best intention for 2013

Have an epic 2013!

Namaste.

My Top 10 Memorable Moments in 2012

Dear Friends,

As 2012 nears the end, I couldn't help but review my year. Although it wasn't a smooth, easy year, I do have 10 amazing moments I lived through that are worth sharing. I encourage all of you to look back at your own 2012. Reflecting on an entire year actually allows you to become aware of moments you perhaps took for granted. There are not-so-good moments that we would rather forget, but we need to spend time in darkness to better appreciate the light.
My 2012 was very kind and giving. It was filled with change and challenges, risks and uncertainty, love and support. Writing this post made me realize how truly blessed I've been this year.
I wish you all love and light in 2013. Lead with love and find your light. Namaste.

#1. Starting a blog

Late one Friday night in March, out of complete boredom, I decided to start a blog about yoga and well-being. To date, I've published 105 posts and I've had over 7000 pageviews! Thank you for reading, commenting and sharing. This blog has given me a platform whereby I can be totally honest about what I'm living. I'm grateful for all the touching messages I receive when others connect with my experience. Sharing is caring!

#2. Hugging Seane Corn

During the Toronto Yoga Conference, I bumped into my yoga Guru, Seane Corn, in the washroom. As she just finished washing her hands, I grabbed her, hugged her like she was my long lost sister, and told her she was the most amazing human being and my inspiration. Unforgettably awesome! PS - even in adulthood, it's totally cool to tell someone they've inspired you.

#3. Teaching yoga...7 years later

After taking a seven year break from teaching yoga, not only did I get back together with my yoga mat, I decided to start teaching again. My Tuesday night classes have been an absolute blessing. I'm grateful for every 'AH-HA' moment my students have inspired. Note to all - it's never too late to get back on the saddle and ride into the unknown.

#4. Teaching yoga to KIDS

During my return to the mat, I discovered a deep interest in teaching yoga to children. I completed my Radiant Child training and immediately began teaching Sunday classes. I've also been blessed with the opportunity to be teaching in daycares as well. Aside from taking kids through a journey in the jungle, Australia, and even to the North Pole, I've converted these mini yogis into "bucket fillers". All kids really want is someone to listen to their daily experiences without judgement or criticism. They'll appreciate your feedback, especially if it comes with smiles, hugs and high fives.

#5. Road Trip - Take 2

After having experienced my worst family road trip in 2011, I faced my fear and made a second attempt. I absolutely wanted to attend my cousin Tina's wedding in Connecticut, so I made a deal with the Uni-verse that everything would go smoothly. My positive affirmations convinced me that this trip would be fantastic....and it was!
The mind is the most powerful organ in the human body. It dictates how your day will unravel, so make it work for you and not against you.

#6. Becoming an Entrepreneur

In September, I launched a product for those who are spiritual minded or simply looking for mental peace. I created 'Positive Pillowcases' under my enterprise, Decor OMantra. They are available on Etsy.com or can be purchased directly through me. My plan for 2013 is to expand my distribution to yoga studios and spiritual wellness centres.

Leaving the fashion industry after 15 years certainly wasn't easy. I took a risk to venture back into the yoga/spiritual world. I felt energetically drawn to the spiritual world with a need to express my hardships with anxiety. I'm blessed to have the support to start a new career. I hope you're doing what you love and if you're not, may 2013 be your year of movement.

#7. Being on The Ellen Show

When my husband surprised me with a trip back to LA for our 5 year wedding anniversary, I was thrilled. But when he told me I'd be going to The Ellen Show, I was ecstatic! Being on the show was definitely a bucket list experience. Ellen DeGeneres is an incredible human being, so I was honored to have the opportunity to meet her.

#8. Watching a LIVE LAKERS basketball game at Staples Center

My love for the LA LAKERS dates back to high school. Magic Johnson (#32) will forever be the most amazing athlete to me. There isn't a high school memory that doesn't include a Lakers sweat shirt, tee or baseball cap! My claim to fame was to be a Laker girl, so attending a live game in November was simply, magic!

#9. Sharing laughs with Pascale Des Landes before she passed

When I found out my former co-worker, Pascale, was in the hospital, I debated over going to visit her. I heard her cancer had caused her to lose a lot of weight and create such discomfort that she could barely hold a conversation. I wasn't sure I'd be able to face her and talk as though life was great. One morning, I woke up thinking she could use some company, but I also wanted to reconnect with her on a deeper level. I gathered my courage, went to visit her and was surprised to see how incredibly energetic she was. We talked, we complained, we laughed. I left telling her I'd be back with a Christmas tree, in case she'd still be in the hospital. I never made it back before she was released, but I'm happy to announce that she made it home to her dogs and her own Christmas tree. Sadly, she left us this month. Her battle with cancer was long and abusive, but rather than focusing on the negative, I choose to remember the last time I saw her.

Thich Nhat Hanh said, "When you love someone, the best thing you can offer is your presence." Those words encouraged me to go visit her and I hope they encourage others to visit someone that's ill or lonely.

She will forever remain a warrior in my heart. xo

#10. Finally.....getting my Yoga Alliance certification!!

It took 200 hours of yoga practice and theory, plus hours of homework, intense exams and practice teaching to finally get here. In this scenario, I was definitely the turtle in the class as it took me almost 8 years to finally get my printed certification! Back when I started my teacher training program, I opted for the distractions around me rather than guiding people through a vinyasa flow. I wasn't passionate about teaching, so I let it go. My return to teaching was manifested by a series of anxiety attacks that not only brought me back onto my mat, but allowed my personal practice to reconnect to my Self. Today I believe that my calling is to help and serve others through yoga and spiritual guidance. Each day I discover new actions and reflect on my reactions. My motto is 'Practice makes Better', so 2013 get ready for a better me!

How will you make 2013 rock for you?





Just Be

When your monkey mind is on the go,

Just breathe, be, and let the thoughts flow.

 

When you believe your negative thoughts to be real,

Just breathe, be, and change how you feel.

 

When all your excuses have run dry,

Just breathe, be, and kiss them good-bye.

 

When you feel like you want to give up and quit,

Just breathe, be, and face your shit.

 

When your anger and sadness awaken after years,

Just breathe, be, and welcome the tears.

 

When the messages are loud, but you choose not to hear,

Just breathe, be, and let go of the fear.

 

When your body is telling you something is sore,

Just breathe, be, but don't ignore.

 

When your chronic pain is too much to bare,

Just breathe, be; the reasons are there.

 

When you cling to anger you don't fully live,

Just breathe, be, let go and forgive.

When you look in the mirror and don't like who you see,

Just breathe, be, and repeat, 'I love me!'

 

Every day is a game that you can win or lose,

Just breathe, be, and remember YOU choose.

Prayer for Pascale

Pascale on her wedding day

I knew the day would come when I'd be writing a post about the devil: aka Cancer. I lost a few instrumental heroes to this merciless disease. I can create a family tree of all those I love and have lost. My grandfather, Donato; my mentor, Lou Adler; famous friend/restaurateur, Santo Buffone; warrior mom, sister, daughter and friend, Cathy Procopio; and now I have my dear grandmother, Nonna Maria and friend, Pascale both battling in the trenches.
As I write this, my former colleague and friend, Pascale is in active duty on the assault line. She's tirelessly fighting the enemy. She has ammunition to support her - her husband, her stepson, her devoted family, and an incredible fanbase of friends, encouraging her through combat.
I can sit here and bitch about how Cancer torments with great physical and mental anguish, but I refuse to make this about the enemy. This is a dedication to my friend who is a warrior unlike any other. This is the second time she takes on this devil. As soon as she crushed Cancer the last time, she was back at work.
A talented artist and graphic designer, Pascale has the gift of making a pencil dance on paper. Each sketch of the human face she creates, seems to look into your soul. Pascale is a perfectionist, so when she made finding love her mission, it manifested into Martin, aka Mr. Perfect.
I'm not sure why Pascale has been chosen to experience this indescribable suffering. What I am sure of though, is that she won't be defeated by Cancer. No chemo, radiation or infection will destroy her Spirit. I want to share Pascale's battle with everyone because she deserves to be honored for her perseverance, her immeasurable courage, and most importantly, for her motivation to prevail over her enemy.
Pascale, there's no doubt you feel our collective energy around you. We're all on the sidelines cheering you on! No one will ever know what you're living both physically and mentally, but we do know is the strength of your Spirit and we have hope.
Edited from Marianne Williamson:
Dear God,
Please place Your hand upon Pascale (and all like her who suffer)
and heal her body, mind and soul.
Fill every cell with love and light.
Restore her to Your endless peace.
And so it is.
Amen

A Mother...

Warrior Mom

A Mother comes to your rescue when you're overwhelmed....expresses interest in the unfolding of your day....offers comfort when you feel defeated....listens to you ramble in self-doubt without judgement....believes in your potential....serves as your punching bag when you're distressed....provides unconditional support....will always be your biggest fan....accepts you just the way you are....candidly reminds you that you weren't an easy child either....shows compassion when you're a mess....encourages you to rest....is dependable when you're in the trenches...ends every phone call with 'I love you'. Though I often take my Mom for granted, that's not the case today. Thich Nhat Hanh said, "When you love someone, the best thing you can offer is your presence. How can you love if you are not there?". Praise the people in your life who show up for the cheers and the tears.

We are NEVER EVER getting back Together

Dear Anxiety,
We've got to stop meeting like this! Just when I've moved on, you reappear begging to come back into my life. Who do you think you are? You think you can just crawl back into my mind and make me believe that I'm crazy, weak, scared, or not good enough?!
I remember when we last met up, you convinced me I should leave wherever I was. You brainwashed me into believing that leaving was the answer, when instead I was just running away from my feelings. But I love myself enough to call your bluff.
We haven't seen eachother in a few months, but you come around again and say, "I miss you". I say, "I HATE you!" Stop stalking my mind. I know I'm good enough and strong enough to leave you behind. This time I'm telling you that we are never ever getting back together....like EVER! You go talk to someone else because I'm tired of hearing your negative, hurtful words. And I'm really gonna miss you playing with my head and me, falling for all the bulls*** you said.
I used to think, that we, were forever ever ever, and I used to say, "never say never", but we are NEVER ever getting back together!
*Dedicated to all those who've been mentally abused by anxiety. Today is garbage day, so dump it!

Toast to the West Coast

Supported Fish/Matsyasana pose

I'm back from probably one of the best trips of my life! I made it to Hollywood thanks to the ELLEN show, saw my favorite basketball team (the LA Lakers) win, popped into enlightening yoga classes, and took in some beach prana. God, I love the West Coast!
I've been an East side girl all my life, so I always felt this deep rooted connection with NYC. Within an hour and a half, I could land in the center of the Universe. There's an undeniable force of energy that you feel when you hit the Big Apple. As a fashion capital, it's edgy, fast-paced, impatient, full of personality, but can be mean - sounds so relatable to me! California, on the other hand, is West Coast 's source of well-being. Healthy food grown locally, vineyards, beaches, and palm tress are the key elements of goodness. Away from the superficial Hollywood hills is Santa Monica. A haven that's calm, laid back, patient, mind-body-spirit conscious, and just light - summing up how I aspire to live. There's a strong sense of peace that comes with living near the beach. The air is pure, the sound of the waves soothe the soul, even the seagulls are inviting. Six hours away is where daisy dukes and surf boards meet red carpet mayhem and paparazzi.
In honour of my five year wedding anniversary, my husband surprised me with a trip back to LA. This time though, instead of Rodeo Drive, Melrose and celeb sightings, I was excited about driving along the coast to Malibu and trying innovative yoga classes. I needed an escape that would lift my spirit and crank up my energy. Although the highlight of my trip was being part of The Ellen Show audience, I was on a mission to explore yoga in a holistically advanced city.
My research took me to Yoga Hop (vinyasa yoga accompanied by loud Top 40 music). I went into this class thinking this was yet another marketable exploitation of yoga...perfect to shake things up on my mat. The class started fast, without the usual 'OM' chanted at the beginning. I was pleasantly surprised by the warm welcome the teacher gave me, after recognizing I was a newbie. The whole idea of commercial music blasting from speakers, in yoga class, is so foreign to me. Yet as toxins melted away through my sweat, I found strength through the songs I usually sing along to in my car. Michael Jackson's uplifting voice guided me through my 20th vinyasa and just when I thought I couldn't hold Warrior III anymore, Kelly Clarkson convinced me that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger!
Your mind plays such a big role in yoga and although I prefer classes with spiritual ties, the addition of familiar music accompanying my practice, pumped up my spirit. I made it through an intense "Summit 2/3" class at Yoga Hop thanks to its unconventional method of connecting mind, body, spirit. My body was sore, but my spirit soared, and that's the high you want to leave with.
This 4 day getaway was like a spiritual cleanse that I could never get in a city that never sleeps. I'm converting to Team West Side as I hope to bring that same spiritual hype to my yoga classes. Whatever style of yoga you practice, remember that what matters most is how you feel after the class. Once your muscles settle, it's how your spirit settles that defines the essence of your practice. I love the NY part of me, but to be balanced and a better me, my other half is all West Coast!
A shout out to my husband for the opportunity to relive a part of our honeymoon. This time the view was even better!

Reality Check

Tonight I have a heavy heart. I hurt someone's feelings. What began as a conversation addressing the other person's anger, turned out to be an outpouring of sadness instead. Without being able to even look at me, she sat at the table talking as though it was a therapy session. "Why doesn't she appreciate anything?", she repeated about me. As she explained how she talks to herself about my sharp words and angry tone, she was slowly chipping away at my spirit.
'Be kind' has been my signature statement for months, but today kindness felt so unfamiliar to me. Here I was thinking she was angry about a conversation we had earlier, when in turn she was saddened by my consistently angry state. She cried, then I cried. Her pain reunited me with my own pain that dated back to my first job. My boss wasn't human. Instead of blood running through his veins, it was venom. I could've moved the Eiffel Tower into his office and he'd point out that the Trevi fountain holds more meaning. No matter what I did, or how hard I worked, he was never satisfied. So when she told me that I didn't appreciate anything, I crumbled. Who the hell am I? Yes, I admit I'm working on my patience, but am I really that imbalanced?
I'm struggling with self-love right now. I find it almost impossible to believe I'm an amazing human being after being told her reality of me is different. She definitely owns her pain, the same way in which we all do. No one can "make" anyone feel bad, but you certainly can awaken someone's buried sufferings. I have no desire to be that person. My mission is to uplift people by providing tools to help them connect to their best Self. I guess that only happens at the yoga studio :( Back at home, it's a whole other reality that's much less marketable.
We all have our bad days, but this is coming from someone who lives with me. Her references of my mean streak went beyond a few PMS days. Though my home is where I'm most vulnerable, raw and real, it's painful to hear that my actions could be so hurtful. As I pathetically tried to defend (not deny) my actions, I realized I had no defence. She was holding up a mirror with guilty written across it in bold. You can sit in meditation for a half hour, connect to an emotion, cry it out and feel lighter. But you can also have someone tell you their feelings about your actions, and feel ashamed and heavy. Yup, meditation is looking way more fun right now.
So how am I going to shake this sadness? I'm going to breathe, take accountability, learn from this experience. I'm also going to make a commitment to live my yoga off the mat. Of course it's easier to feel peace and love on my "magic carpet" for 2 hours. When I get off the high though, is when yoga really matters. Reflection is like a detox cleanse that we could all do once in a while. Nothing wrong with cleaning out the toxins in our bodies, or mind, or spirit. Yes, our spirit has toxins - they're made up of the Ego! This is my AH-HA moment of the day - I'm often lead by my Ego when I'm at home. I think it's time to send it on a hiatus because it's serving me nothing but guilt and shame. Who the heck wants that?
If you read this post, thanks for allowing me to dump my emotional garbage. I may be judged, or even disappoint some of you. Frankly, I'm disappointed in myself too. This is one of those moments in life I like to call "reality check" (prefer reality "cleanse"). May you all find a tiny hole of light in your darkest moments. Be kind to yourself - even if it's a struggle. Shanti.

Mother Nature & Anger Management

Mother Nature blowing off steam!
Image: paulmaszlik.deviantART.com

Mother Nature. You give life to all the beauties in the world. You're the prime nurturer of nature, so how could you be so cruel? What goes through your mind when you wake up and decide today will be a disaster? I know I encourage deep breathing often, but winds at 150 miles are not the full exhalation I'm referring to. May be you're just pissed off at the human race for slowly destroying everything you've created? Whatever your reason for Katrina, Andrew, or Sandy, you have deep rooted anger issues. AH-HA moment! OMG I can relate to Mother Nature!
Sometimes, my day starts with happy feet and a bright smile. No one can put a damper on my day AND then it happens! My boss tells me my marketing pitch is lack lustre, or I missed a major deadline, or I burned dinner! Suddenly the dark side awakens and I go from simmer to boiling in seconds. My heart rate goes up, my cheeks turn red, and my breath shortens - I'm a moving volcano. So when I questioned Mother Nature's emotional dysfunction, it dawned on me that we're just like her. We all have sunny days with light wind, and we most certainly have days with downpours of hail and sharp winds.
As we watch CNN in bewilderment, let's step back a minute to acknowledge our own anger that lives deep within us. Yesterday, Sandy was having a horrible day and she was sure to let it all out. But what if Sandy released her anger in increments instead? Perhaps one day she'd blow strong winds in the desert and another day she'd strike lightning in the plains. No one would get hurt and she'd release her anger; it's a win-win! That being said, how can we release anger before it gets too intense and explosive?
Luckily, there are props we can use to fuel our anger. Punching bags rock! Don't have one? Pound your pillow instead. The physical contact of a fist to a pillow or baseball bat to a tree, sends vibrations in your body which actually relieve tension. Stress and anger can produce significant physical and emotional discomfort. Often times, like Mother Nature, we discharge our anger onto other people. If you release feelings of intense anger regularly (through use of props, not people), it'll have a cathartic effect on your overall stress or anger level.
The way in which we wish Mother Nature could ease up and calm down, I wish the same for all of us as well. Let's give inner peace a chance!

I'm an Entrepreneur

When I stopped having butterflies over Yves St. Laurent newsletters, I knew it was time to move on. Fashion continues to run deep in my veins, but as of last Fall, it just wasn't getting my heart rate up anymore. The only thing that managed to crank up my heart rate back then, was my anxiety. While I battled to get back to happy, I started connecting to my Self through various unconventional methods. It took a lot of deep breathing exercises, meditation, yoga, and positive self-talk through affirmations, to help me get through it.

One day, as I lay my head on my pillow, with tears streaming down, I struggled to think of positive affirmations to get me out of this miserable state. I had a breakthrough! Why not print affirmations on the one place I rely on for mental peace? My pillow has been my best friend throughout every anxiety attack. I'm beyond grateful to the goose that provided its feathers for my little head, loaded with racing thoughts, to find peace every night. I needed to refer to books, articles I had collected, and cards to reassure me that all was well in my world. All I wanted was a dependable bedside buddy to redirect my thoughts from bad to good. And with my pillow being so comforting, designing a pillowcase with key affirmations to start and end my day, was the best idea I ever manifested.

My small business is called OMANTRA (OM - being the Universal sound and Mantra being words that you repeat to achieve mental bliss). I designed a set of 'AM' and 'PM' pillowcases. The 'AM' pillowcase says 'INHALE' on the front, and holds seven morning affirmations to start your day feeling empowered with self-love. The 'PM' pillowcase says 'EXHALE' on the front, with seven evening affirmations to end a busy, stressful day in peace. I created this product because I truly believe in the power of our thoughts and how deeply they are connected to the Universe. "Change your thoughts; change your life" is a motto I strongly support as our thoughts dictate how our lives will unfold, minute by minute.

As you lay your head on your pillow tonight, I encourage you think of only the BEST moments of your day, and let go of the less memorable ones that don't serve you any good. Thank your pillow for the comfort it provides your body, mind, and spirit. To the insomniacs, a pillowcase to repeat positive affirmations could serve you more than a good night's sleep ;) Happy thoughts!

 

We're all Bullies @ some Point

Image: Amanda Todd Facebook memorial pg

On October 10th, 2012 yet another teen took her own life due to bullying. I won't bore you with bullying stats, but the stat I will highlight is that of Amanda Todd's Facebook memorial page, which has 748,770 likes! It makes you wonder: did this young girl, who felt completely alone, who dared to pour out her pain on a youtube video, ever imagine she'd be liked by more than half a million people?
Bullying (the hot topic for over a decade) is an epidemic that seems uncontrollable. But as a mother of two, I refuse to believe that it can't be stopped. For a while, I dismissed bullying stories because I felt the media was simply glamorizing these acts of hate. I also wondered what role the parents of these victims were playing. How were they supporting their child emotionally? Did they verbally brainwash their children into believing they were inferior, therefore lacking in self-esteem? Where was the deep rooted, unconditional love only a parent can provide? I'm sure there are endless answers to these questions, but the tough questions go to the parents of the bullies. Where is the love? There's absolutely no way you can convince me that a child raised with raw love, can ever hurt someone so badly, that they'd encourage them to commit suicide.
But I can clearly see how bullying has changed since I was a child. In elementary school, having nicknames for our peers was a tradition. Though these nicknames certainly weren't kind, that was about the extent of bullying that I can recall. Today bullying goes way beyond the school yard and doesn't end at 3 pm. Thanks to our high-tech world, bullying takes on a whole new life in cyberspace. Our children today live under a microscope with little room for pity. Verbal torture is the hottest trend on Facebook - so now what? Well I'm so done with hearing yet another suicide stat under the bullying category. I thought I'd write a post that could perhaps enlighten just one little soul or awaken one parent.
Kindness is simple. Love is what completes us. Communication is the essential tool to connect kindness with love. Talk to your children with an open heart and express the responsibility they have to be kind human beings. But in order for our children to buy into our lecture, WE, the adults, have to show kindness and love towards others as well. If you sit on the phone criticising your "friend", and your children hear that, what message are you sending? If you then attempt to discuss the harmful affects bullying has on others, you're most likely going to get tuned out. Bullying isn't only a child/teen crisis, it's actually very common among adults as well. Judgement, criticism, belittlement are all recognizable, unloving actions, that we're all guilty of doing. If each day, you commit to replacing a critical comment with a compassionate one, you're now part of the solution. Inhale the love, exhale the hostility.
In the end (as always) only kindness matters. Show kindness towards yourself, those you love, and to the ones you love a little less - bring it on! When you see someone who hurt you and have the power to wish them well - that's character. Make your mission to be so busy loving your life, you have no time for hate or regret. Share that mission at your dinner table or with your students. You're never too young or too old to manifest random acts of kindness. We're all responsible for our actions, so why not make them positive ones? Want to end bullying? Start by sharing love, compassion, and kindness because those actions can never destroy any human being's spirit.
To Amanda Todd, and all the other silent heroes who drowned in hatred; your legacy will live on forever. Through your deep suffering, you helped others defeat their demons. It takes true character to be a warrior and these fallen angels make up the warriorship. RIP.

The Butterfly Effect

Parsva Bakasana/Side Crane pose

This year I transitioned from a caterpillar into a butterfly. Caterpillars almost "melt" completely before turning into butterflies. Well a little over a year ago, I can candidly admit that I was having my own meltdown! I was now a mother of two (equals double dependency on Mommy), with a rising career on hold. Creating my family ranked high on my 'to do' list, but it was also overwhelming. I went from European business trips and private plane rides across the US, to visiting pediatricians for ear infection diagnostics. Following seasonal trends in Vogue was replaced by Babycenter.com for insight on developmental milestones. As my children were growing, I was slowly melting. I couldn't comprehend how I went from three quarters up the corporate ladder, to strategizing self-soothing sleep methods. The pressure of having two children depend on me, was beyond that of finding the perfect model for our Fall campaign. Though both duties offered little room for error, I set the Mom bar so high, it was unreachable. Slowly, slowly I melted down, feeling lost and disoriented. I comforted myself with tears and pity parties. How did I get here? When will I leave? Will I ever be good enough at this?

Over a year later, I can proclaim, I made it! I got through each stage with struggle and motivation. I was determined to be me again. I still have to remind myself daily that I am good enough, and to breathe, breathe, and breathe some more. So on this Thanksgiving weekend, I felt it necessary to share my gratitude. To my husband and close friends, who didn't understand, but listened nonetheless - I thank you. To God, the Source, who cheered me on spiritually - I thank you. To Team Uni-verse for consistently supporting me through mudslides and waterfalls - I thank you. Parsva Bakasana (see image) would never be achievable if I didn't trust you! To my dear yoga mat for holding up the mirror to my fears - I bow to you! Lastly, to every caterpillar that's "melting" - be kind to your Self, give your worries to the Uni-verse and remember to breathe, breathe, and breathe some more!

Mark your Territory

How do you leave your mark?

I believe that the importance in life is rooted in the relationships we develop. The most important relationship is the one we have with our Self. As the great Louise Hay once said, "You will be in a relationship with YOU longer than anyone else on the planet." This is a very strong statement reminding us that every choice we make, will impact us (you) greater than anyone else. That being said, I ask you to become really aware of how you treat yourself. Try to catch every compliment and criticism you give yourself daily. Don't judge it, just be aware. Once you become conscious of how you treat yourself, you can begin building a loving, accepting relationship with YOU. Become your biggest fan! Heck if you don't think you're extraordinary, how will anyone else think you are?!Leave your mark! Befriend every mirror you spot. Walk up to your reflection and say, "Hey You! I love you! You rock. Keep up the extraordinary work!" Put love everywhere. Love, by the way, is contagious. The only issue is that most people don't believe in sharing it. Well "sharing is caring" and nothing in this lifetime is more desirable than being loved. But it has to start with YOU. Dust off that pocket mirror from the bottom of your purse and start spreading the love. You're EXTRAORDINARY and capable of manifesting everything you put effort into. Don't believe anyone that tells you otherwise, because honestly, there's no room for two in the relationship with YOU. 

Give Kind

Keep

Initiating

Nice

Deeds

 

"Only an act that's loving & kind,

gets recognized beyond the mind"

- ME

 

Like Mother, Like Daughter

As a parent, you hear that expression all the time! In my case, I hear it especially when I'm commenting on my daughter's high energy, her fascination with strangers, and her eagerness to "interview" anyone who makes eye contact with her. She may be as outgoing and talkative as I am, but she has key qualities that I've always wished for - fearlessness and persistence.
Growing up, I was the kid voted to one day run the country. I appeared to be confident, courageous, and persistent. Lesson #1: Don't judge a book by its cover. Confident - though I was always outspoken, I was only cocky within my comfort zone. Courageous - the closest I ever came to a roller coaster ride was standing beside the cotton candy booth. Persistent - that was selective. When it came to expanding my shoe collection - I never gave up! Math assignments, on the other hand, were easy to abandon. So seeing that Chloe (my 4 yr. old), doesn't give up easily and won't bow out to any foreign experience makes me very proud.
As parents, our responsibilities go way beyond the supplying of basic needs to our children. We're their mentors for life, which means our actions and reactions are of considerable influence. When Chloe repeats a word/statement I once blared out in a high octane moment, I feel awful. I'm accountable for her behaviour pretty much until she enters adulthood. It's my belief that our children are deeply effected by our emotional behaviour. So whenever I don't communicate with my child from a place of pure love, I suck! It's very cute to see her physically mimic me through yoga, but it isn't so cute to see her mimic me when I'm emotionally disconnected from my best Self. How do we provide our children with our best Self? Well, I breathe! Right before I'm about to verbally explode, I TRY to stop, breathe, and breathe some more. On an 80/20 scale, it alters my delivery.
As we coast through life in high stress mode, it's so easy to lose our patience. As I share my parental challenges to be better, I'm sure I'm not alone. I'm sure most parents struggle with the desire to be more patient, more tolerant, more understanding with their children - whether they're toddlers or teens.
This post is to remind all parents that as long as we're doing the best we know how, then we're good. It's also a reminder that our children look up to us therefore every act of kindness, every hug we give, every interest we show, goes all long way.

I'm Possible

"Nothing is Impossible. The word itself says 'I'm Possible'.

- Audrey Hepburn

 

The only thing standing between the possible and the impossible is fear. Fear is mental manifestation nestled in our thoughts. Our thoughts become our beliefs, hence the expression, "You are what you think". So if you want to believe in the 'I'm Possible' factor, you need to change your thoughts. Stop proving what you can't do and start improving what you really want to do. If you've always wanted to flip your body upside down, while balancing on your hands, but are scared you'll fall - set up a crash pad! Remember the most successful people didn't achieve greatness on their first attempt (even Steve Jobs failed a few times before getting it right). Live out your "I'm Possible" desires one small step at a time. After all, it's the journey that means the most, so move slowly, diligently, with caution, not fear. Let your heart lead the way (like in Bakasana pose above) and all good things will fall into place.

Tribute to Teachers

Astavakrasana/Eight-Angle pose

In school, they're called 'teachers', in the corporate world, they're called 'mentors', and in the yoga community, they're called 'gurus'. No matter how we choose to label them, their impact is immeasurable.
Take my 3rd grade teacher, Miss Rita Laberee, for instance. She had such an impact on my life that I remained in contact with her throughout high school. Then in 1999, I was privileged to work closely with Diesel Canada President, Lou Adler. And at my first yoga conference, I was forever enlightened by Seane Corn.
As an average student, I preferred the teachers who believed in me, rather than those who compared me to my academically gifted older sister. Throughout my career in fashion, I appreciated the bosses that accepted my mistakes because they were inspired by my passion. And in all the yoga classes I've ever taken, I'm continuously inspired by the teachers who remain authentic and don't take themselves too seriously (ever if their clients include celebs)!
While on the hunt for a yogic awakening during my vacation in Miami, I discovered there was a Jivamukti class (a rare find) at one of the studios. I booked my babysitters and made sure to attend the class. With only me and the studio owner as students that morning, I felt so grateful for the intimate session. As the teacher, Ganapati, guided us in Astavakrasana pose (PS - this was not a pose I was able to do yet), I struggled to get my legs parallel to the floor - actually I could barely get my feet off the floor, let alone straighten my legs! With a compassionate look, he encouraged me to keep practicing.
A week later, he was back on the class schedule, so I made sure to return. Once again, we were only two students and once again he guided us in Astavakrasana pose. He carefully studied my actions, as I was determined to balance in the pose for a few breaths. "Hug your tricep with your left leg, cross your right foot over the left, lean your torso forward, and at the same time, lift your butt back, extend your legs out to the left and squeeze your thighs....and keep breathing!" That was it! The eager student within me showed up with confidence and persistence. But it was Ganapati's clear instructions and encouragement that made it all possible.
You never forget the A-HA moments in your life when you go beyond your expectations. You also never forget the teachers, mentors, and gurus that supported your growth with compassionate guidance. To every teacher who comforted me when I felt discouraged, all the while championing my aspirations and restoring my confidence - I'm eternally grateful. To Ganapati (who until two weeks ago was a complete stranger), thank you for cheering me on while I experienced another unforgettable A-HA yoga pose. As September begins, with back to school, I'm reminded of all the teachers who constantly show up to make a lasting difference - THANK YOU.

Bow to BIG Dreams

Uttanasana in platform heels

As many of you know, I've worked in fashion for fifteen years and no matter how much I believe yoga "saved" me, I still feel connected to the industry that molded me into who I am today. And whether we choose to believe it or not, fashion influences how we choose to reveal ourselves to the world every day.
My favorite scene from the 'The Devil Wears Prada' is when Miranda Priestly (Meryl Streep) reminds her assistant, Andrea Sachs (Anne Hathaway) the influence fashion has on all of us: "This... stuff? Oh... OK. I see, you think this has nothing to do with you. You go to your closet and you select out, oh I don't know, that lumpy blue sweater, for instance, because you're trying to tell the world that you take yourself too seriously to care about what you put on your back. But what you don't know is that that sweater is not just blue, it's not turquoise, it's not lapis, it's actually cerulean. You're also blindly unaware of the fact that in 2002, Oscar de la Renta did a collection of cerulean gowns. And then I think it was Yves St. Laurent, wasn't it, who showed cerulean military jackets? And then cerulean quickly showed up in the collections of eight different designers. Then it filtered down through the department stores and then trickled on down into some tragic Casual Corner where you, no doubt, fished it out of some clearance bin. However, that blue represents millions of dollars and countless jobs and so it's sort of comical how you think that you've made a choice that exempts you from the fashion industry when, in fact, you're wearing the sweater that was selected for you by the people in this room. From a pile of stuff."

Miranda Priestly, thank you for that deeply insightful explanation of the cycle of fashion. 

Although these days I prefer to study the cycle of yoga, I still can't resist peeking into the world that brings me comfort, especially when the Fall season rolls around. So when I opened my daily Bloglovin' email and read that Garance Dore (the ultimate fashion blogger) will be writing a monthly column in Vogue Paris, I was over-the-moon with happiness.

See Garance began writing her blog about fashion, six years ago. Her undeniable talent as an illustrator, fashion writer and photographer, made her a front row regular during Fashion Week. A few years earlier, she was approached by Vogue Paris with a job offer, but didn't feel the timing was right (talk about good intuition). This time, when Emmanuelle Alt (new Editor-in-Chief of Vogue Paris) invited her for coffee, only to offer her the perfect job, she couldn't believe her patience paid off. Being offered to write your own column in Vogue Paris is a dream for any freelance writer, but being asked to keep your authentic voice and not "try to be "Vogue"' is beyond huge.

I dedicate this post to Garance because she represents anyone who struggles to realize their dream (like me). Her path wasn't smooth and easy. It took almost a decade of pounding Fashion Week pavement, to get the rare street shot, that would set her blog apart from the rest. And though she continued to dream big, never losing hope, that her 'moment' would come, and then, Voila! As her first column graces the pages of the September issue of Vogue Paris, I get butterflies knowing that a once BIG dream, is now reality. It's comforting to see that anything is possible when you combine hard work, perseverance, and timing. Suddenly, my dreams of one day teaching yoga to a large crowd, being featured in Yoga Journal, meeting Louise Hay, and writing a self-help book, don't seem so far fetched. 

Every BIG dreamer knows that all great things are possible, but it feels really amazing when we see such dreams come to life. I hope hearing BIG news about a dream being realized encourages you to keep going, keep trying, keep praying, keep visualizing, keep believing in YOU and all the things you're possible of achieving.

For inspiration by Garance Dore, visit her blog: www.garancedore.fr/en/2012/08/27/vogue-paris/

Cheers to NOW

 

Ever wonder what your life would be like if...? Well it really doesn't matter. You chose the path you're on and there's a reason you decided to walk rather than run or drive rather than fly. Right now, you're exactly where you're meant to be, doing exactly what you're meant to be doing, and doing it with exactly the person(s) you're meant to be doing it with.

Cheers to RIGHT NOW - no matter how happy or crappy because this is where you NEED to be.

 

Discipline+Practice=Betterment

Want to be able to do this?

Here's what it takes:
       Dedication
       tIme
    paSsion
       Commitment
    traIning
        Practice
   wilL
repetIion
    coNsistency
      dEvotion
It's Fall, which means its back to school, back to discipline. I was talking to a veteran yoga instructor last week and as we were comparing our yoga class turn out, we realized that there is a major lack of discipline when it comes to this practice.
Why is it that students sign up for a session and then they disappear? Where's the commitment to your yoga practice? Yoga has existed for centuries; it's not a fad. But in the western world, yoga still isn't being taken as seriously as it deserves to be.
Suffering from anxiety? It's not your best friend that will save you. It's a consistent practice of breathing techniques and soul searching that will solve that. Want to end lower back pain? Well I don't think spending an hour on Facebook will relieve that! Feeling stressed? A cocktail or two will definitely chill you out, but that's just a short term solution.
The main reasons people come to my yoga classes is to feel better, both physically and emotionally. Most of their issues go way beyond the physical, which is why yoga is the best option for them. Combining rhythmic breathing (which calms your nervous system), with poses that simply require the use of your own body weight, provides mental and physical stability. Yoga allows you to be in the moment; to tap into the NOW; to detox the emotional crap we cling to. Doesn't that sound like the most enlightening form of physical and spiritual therapy?
September is fast approaching. It's time to fall back into a disciplined practice of anything that brings you happiness and provides compassion. I hope to see you in my yoga classes with your mat and all your issues. I'll be open to receive whatever you bring, so you can leave feeling lighter, happier, kinder, and just overall, BETTER!

Namaste

RIP Anna Piaggi

Fashion Legend Anna Piaggi

If you weren't completely distracted by Olympic highlights last week, you would have seen the news that Italian fashion writer, legend and icon, Anna Piaggi died on August 7th, at the age of 81.Whether you’re a fashion follower or not, I’m sure you’ve seen her unforgettable face before. Known for her over-the-top signature style, this eccentric fashion editor and stylist was a rare breed.

As a fashion fanatic, I looked forward to seeing which character would show up in the front row. Her signature strand of blue hair was always topped with an incredibly unique top hat. Though she claimed she wasn’t photogenic, her bold eye shadow, famous red hearted lips, and layered scarves and accessories made her one of the most photographed faces in fashion.
"She's a great performer, but she is also the author of the play," describes longtime friend, Karl Lagerfeld.  This brings me to the reason why I felt it was important to dedicate a post to Anna on my blog. Here was a woman, who until the age of 81, remained deeply connected to her inner child. Her theatrical fashion style was anything but sexy.  She didn’t dress to impress, but rather to celebrate the pleasure dressing up gave her – just like a four year old. Her costumes were styled almost the same way a child layers her accessories during dress up. She loved every detail and took great pride in consistently delivering another unexpected look guaranteed to shock and awe, which only Anna Piaggi could pull off.


Image: Tessted.com

As we enter adulthood, we say good bye to our inner child. We disconnect from our purest self because we’re conditioned to believe that maturity is required and expected. Yet shutting down the communication with our inner child is what makes us lack compassion, sensitivity, and raw love with ourselves, as well as others. We didn’t know the act of judgment when we were 3. We didn’t know racism and hate as toddlers. The awakened inner child allows human beings to act from a state of loving kindness.
Every image of Anna Piaggi reminds me of the joy that ‘dress up’ brought to my childhood. We could all use a little Anna is our personality. Her carefree approach to simply being her innovative and experimental self, no matter what the papers wrote about her, was priceless. The fashion world will definitely be duller without her.
See you in a rainbow Anna!

Boarding Pass to Practice

Hi Friends! I'm back from my family vacation and boy do I ever need a vacation! Oh yes, I'm in serious need of some Me time. Isn't it funny how we travel hours to "get away", but once you've packed your kids and husband, what getaway is it?! Yes I adore my family and I'm fortunate to be able to travel (for those judging right now), but travelling with your kids, having them with you 24/7, trying to breathe through their meltdowns, isn't my idea of a blissful vacation. So now that I'm back on home turf, my goal is to reconnect with my best Self (PS my best Self took a vaca at the same time, only to leave behind my obnoxious Ego). Needless to say, my temperament over the past 2 weeks has been anything but pleasant.
Am I the only one who feels disconnected from my best Self on family vacations? I mean I didn't get a single yoga practice in, so that certainly didn't help. I was also with my children the entire time, but aren't most people? So I'm wondering, actually I'm confessing rather, that not having any time for me makes me not-so-nice to be around. My tolerance level is at 1, my breath shortens, my expectations of my 4 & 15 month old elevate to unrealistic heights, and my desire to manage public tantrums is at an all-time low. So basically, the only part of me that's on a getaway is my patience!
I know I'm being slightly dramatic (wink wink), and I do enjoy spending time with my kids away from home. I think the part I struggle with on these holidays is finding solace to connect with my best Self. The times I've vacationed and spent a small amount of time alone made me much more compassionate and understanding. It's almost as if you get to recharge your battery so you can operate at your fullest potential.
The day before I left, I was writing a post about practicing, in which I included my 'practice list' for the following 4 wks. Needless to say, I didn't have time to complete the post, so when I discovered it the morning, I had quite a laugh. My practice list included patience and compassion towards those closest to me. It's crazy how we live in a society that thrives in the following modes: go, fast, and now. We react in 'go' mode, at a fast pace, to get whatever, now - hence our lack of patience and compassion. How many times do you stop yourself from reacting when your Ego is leading? I'm sure the answer is, rarely.
As funny or bizarre as it might sound, practice makes better. We all can use a little practice at being better human beings. For some it might come naturally, but for most, we need reminding - even an actual list! Whatever it takes to help slow us down so we can breathe better, think from the heart, and silence the Ego, I think makes us be better. When I take time for myself (even 5 minutes), I know everything I do gets done better. Sometimes it takes a family vacation to learn the benefits of daily practice. Now that I'm back, it's time to send my Ego on vacation so I can practice without interruption. For anyone about to set off on a vacation, try to schedule a personal practice to avoid needing another vacation upon your return ;)

Generation OM

'Got Yoga?' If you're a parent, I suggest you ask that question to your child's physical education teacher. Back when I was in elementary school, my favorite gym activity was sprint races. Sure we all loved the occasional dodge ball game, but I wish someone had taught me how to breathe properly, before teaching me how to jump rope.
The benefits of yoga are infinite. By introducing the practice at a young age, children will begin to set a foundation that will support them physically, mentally and spiritually. Yoga for kids: builds confidence and self-esteem; improves concentration; helps develop balance, flexibility, coordination, and strength; promotes creativity and imagination; encourages calmness; and most importantly, helps kids cope with stress and their emotions.
I can still visualize my tiny body, laying helplessly on my nonna's bathroom floor, on the first day of school. I had convinced myself that I was too ill to attend school. By the time 9:30 rolled around, I was perfectly fine! The physical pain I experienced earlier, was very real! I didn't know then that the pain was brought on by mental noise, aka - anxiety. Too bad  phys ed didn't include breathing techniques in grade 1.
Having experienced anxiety so early in my life, I refuse to see other children live through such unnecessary emotional disruption. Yoga, meditation, and breathing exercises have enabled me to reinforce my foundation, find mental clarity and spiritual awakening. If children are the future, then they deserve to reap the benefits of a balanced lifestyle. Somewhere between walking on the moon and the launch of the iphone, we missed out on living the totality of our true self.
As I grow and learn, I realize that love is the most powerful healing force, and that our relationship with our self and others provides the greatest teachings. So as a yoga kids teacher, my goal is go beyond introducing the benefits of yoga. Instead I choose to teach kids to lead with their heart in all that they do. Who knows, may be Apple will develop a self-love app that encourages acts of loving kindness. How's that for a prosperous future?!

Our Future

Haters vs. Heart

Image: Kathryn Budig fb pg

Meet the Haters Obstacles:
"I'm not convinced," said the Husband.
"Your timing isn't good," said the Sister.
"You won't make money," said the Accountant.
"So much for private education," said the Mom.
"You're setting yourself up for failure," said the Ego.
"Fuck them," said the Heart.

Ready to make a move? Then you'll need to pack 'The Support System': Trust for guidance; Guts for confidence; Heart for success. Sending you Love, Light & Luck!

Namaste.

Y.O.L.O.

What does that really mean?

 It means:

And it also means:

So STOP making EXCUSES; START knocking over self-created OBSTACLES, b/c:

Images: kelly-neill.com, whereismyguru.com, uvtblog.com

Magnificent Me

Image: www.pinktanpopodesigns.com

This post is dedicated to children. It's a cheer inspired by my 'Radiant Child' yoga kids!

Clap your hands and stomp your feet,
Listen first; then repeat.
Get ready, get set,
You ain't seen nothing yet!

I am Team ME,
the best that I can be

Everywhere I go, I shine my light,
Being kind, keeps it bright
I follow my heart - it always knows best,
Never mind about the rest
I may not always be in the greatest mood,
That doesn't mean it's OK to be rude
I am grateful for the way I live,
What I get, is what I give
I try my best because I know I can,
I'll always be my biggest fan

Give me an M, give me an E
There's only one ME
This is who I love to be!

I know my words will affect my day,
Positive talk is always the way
I sprinkle love to everyone I know,
That's how my heart will always grow
I'm so happy for all that I've got,
My family and friends mean a lot
Before I sleep, I like to pray,
And thank the Lord for my day.

I am Team ME
the best that I can be
Give me an M, give me an E,
There's only one ME!

FACT: You Are What You Attract

Illustration by Marcos Chin

Ahh, the law of attraction - how sneaky you are! Ever wonder why certain things seem to happen only to you or how you ended up where you are today? Meet the L.O.A. (aka Law of Attraction). This universal force cannot be reckoned with. Although it's as powerful as Mother Nature, it is predictable.
You see what you (yup, YOU) put out into the Universe, through your words and thoughts, actually does get absorbed. That's right - if you keep focusing on your empty bank account or lack luster career, guess what? Neither will improve! You wanna attract happiness, money, Mr. Right, good health, or success; then lather on some honey and the bees will come! Get unstuck by shifting your thoughts and words to the positive tense. Start your day with a handful of positive affirmations, relevant to what you want to attract in your life. Sitting in traffic five days a week? Perfect time to repeat your affirmations. As you release your positive words into the Universe, visualize what they represent for you. If happiness means a home filled with children, then let that be your mini series. Now, if Mr. Right is Ryan Gosling, I don't think that's who you'll marry, but I like to dream big, so go for it!
Joking aside, you get what you give. If you give out negative vibrations through angry, bitter words, you'll be stuck in neutral forever. If you buy into your Self and shift your beliefs to the greater good, then your personal stock will soar. You have almighty control over who you are at this very moment in your life. Oh ya, the big guy created you, but you manifested the you of today. It's almost like God preps you with all the ingredients to make the most incredible tomato sauce. You choose which ingredients you'll actually use and how much love you're going to put into this sauce to make it incredible. I'm completely aware that God did give you parents are guides, but once you've entered adulthood, you're flying solo. So stop blaming your parents for who you are (the Universe tuned out on that one a long time ago).
So you may be wondering who made me the Universe's agent, right? Well I'm living proof (along with y'all) that what you put out there, both mentally and verbally, does come back to you. In my case, I was so obsessed with something negative, that I actually got to experience it. In the end, what I thought would be my greatest nightmare, didn't turn out to be so bad after all. Truthfully, I'm grateful to have lived it because it made me conscience of the power of my thoughts and words. You may not realize it, but if you constantly repeat that "everything bad happens to me"; congrats, you're right!
Here's your latest task: observe your words. Notice how many negative thoughts get vocalized. Stop criticisizing your actions or who you are. You're definitely not perfect, but why strive to be perfect? If you'd be perfect, you'd stop growing and be boring. And stop believing that only bad comes your way. Believe in the good, trust in the process and you'll attract what you desire. The Universe wants only the best for you; now it's up to you to want the same.