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| Parsva Bakasana/Side Crane pose |
This year I transitioned from a caterpillar into a butterfly. Caterpillars almost "melt" completely before turning into butterflies. Well a little over a year ago, I can candidly admit that I was having my own meltdown! I was now a mother of two (equals double dependency on Mommy), with a rising career on hold. Creating my family ranked high on my 'to do' list, but it was also overwhelming. I went from European business trips and private plane rides across the US, to visiting pediatricians for ear infection diagnostics. Following seasonal trends in Vogue was replaced by Babycenter.com for insight on developmental milestones. As my children were growing, I was slowly melting. I couldn't comprehend how I went from three quarters up the corporate ladder, to strategizing self-soothing sleep methods. The pressure of having two children depend on me, was beyond that of finding the perfect model for our Fall campaign. Though both duties offered little room for error, I set the Mom bar so high, it was unreachable. Slowly, slowly I melted down, feeling lost and disoriented. I comforted myself with tears and pity parties. How did I get here? When will I leave? Will I ever be good enough at this?
Over a year later, I can proclaim, I made it! I got through each stage with struggle and motivation. I was determined to be me again. I still have to remind myself daily that I am good enough, and to breathe, breathe, and breathe some more. So on this Thanksgiving weekend, I felt it necessary to share my gratitude. To my husband and close friends, who didn't understand, but listened nonetheless - I thank you. To God, the Source, who cheered me on spiritually - I thank you. To Team Uni-verse for consistently supporting me through mudslides and waterfalls - I thank you. Parsva Bakasana (see image) would never be achievable if I didn't trust you! To my dear yoga mat for holding up the mirror to my fears - I bow to you! Lastly, to every caterpillar that's "melting" - be kind to your Self, give your worries to the Uni-verse and remember to breathe, breathe, and breathe some more!
